In love with this!!

So I've been hunting on etsy.com for the perfect veil, for quite awhile!! I couldn't find the right peice/clip with the right veil! So finally I just bought two seperate pieces, and I am going to put them together so they look like one!! Smart right? Yeah I thought so too... :)

Tell me this isn't amazing.. I am soooo in love with it!


And then this will be the veil I have coming out of the feather clip! (it might not look exactly like it does on this girl, but it's the same birdcage.)



You like?? :)

"I'm coming up only to hold you under.."

A few facts..

I am a girl in love, he is amazing, and I cannot wait to spend the rest of my life as his wife. <3 07/07/10

I love music as much as I love Erik. (And that is a lot.) I was raised in a music loving family. Almost everyone in my family can sing, or play an instrument, or both. (Except me of course.) Maybe if I tried.. Music just has a way with me.. It understands me when no one else can. It seems like music always knows how I am feeling, and plays the perfect song at the perfect moment. If I had to pick between being deaf or blind, I'd choose to lose my sight. I don't think I could ever go without hearing music. "I'm coming up only to hold you under. I'm coming up only to show you wrong. And to know you is hard; we wonder, To know you all wrong; we warn."

I love to write. Although I never write anymore.. It seems like my best writing days were during my darkest days. And once I started having true happiness, I can't find the words to write anymore. So I guess I gotta take the good with the bad?

I think I have an obsession with television.. Sad I know. I went pretty much my whole childhood with out tv. My dad got rid of it one day, and never got it back! Then by the time I moved out, I was too busy to watch it. But once I moved to MD, and didn't have a job for 2 months.. I was sucked in. I think my brain is melting.

I have experienced death up close and personal.. in many ways. Old age, cancer, suicide, drug poisoning, even unknown causes. Death is not easy. And every time I hear about someone passing away, my heart aches. Even if the person isn't close to me. I know death happens every day, and it is the way it is supposed to be. But I can't help but feel sorry for the loved ones left behind to miss them. I lost my mother when I was 19. I still cry at least every week. I didn't have a normal relationship with her when she was alive.. And I wonder if I did, if it would have made her death easier or harder? Everyone needs to cherish what they have with their mom. Don't take it for granted.. Because I did, and I regret it every day.

I have an extremely un healthy obsession with my body. One I struggle with every day. I am slowly learning to stop picking myself apart.

I live 2000 miles away from where I grew up. Never thought that would happen, but it is beautiful here.

I hate beets.

I am the BIGGEST cry baby, ever. I seriously cry over anything and everything. My doctor told me I have a "sensitive soul"

I have the most amazing dad, and I am the biggest daddy's girl. My pops has been through soooo much, and it seems like it just makes him more amazing. He always makes me laugh, I love his singing voice, I miss him allll the time.

I try to dance a little every day. Whether I shake my butt for a second, dance in the car, or full on shake my groove thing.

I am afraid of every bug.

I never wanted kids until I met Erik. And I always swore up and down that I wasn't a jealous person, until I met Erik. Hehe.

Anddd, I think I am done with this post :)

Happy Tuesday everyone.

Addicted?

I am definitely addicted to changing my hair..

If I can't cut it, I will color it. (Vise versa) I loved having short hair, I could do whatever my heart desired! I was in beauty school for esthetics at the time, and we were always finding new and different things to do with my hair. But I decided quite awhile ago that I was going to attempt growing it out. I had pretty long hair in high school, and I missed it. Quite frankly, the only reason I chopped it short was because my friend over processed my hair with bleach and fried it off. (I had a mullet, it was terrible.) So anyways.. Yeah my hair is pretty long again! And don't get me wrong, I love it. But I reallllly miss my short funky hair!
So.. I promised Erik I would grow it out for the wedding, and I have. But after.. I am seriously thinking about cutting it like this..


I love love love it!! (The cut, I can't do the blonde)

Ahhh.. Anyways.. Back to the wedding! So right now my hair is like.. a level 3 probably. It's DARK, almost black (accident, I didn't want it THIS dark..) And the wedding is in the summer, and I usually like my hair somewhat light in the summer. But I am NOT going blonde for my wedding. I am not a blonde, so why should I be on my wedding?? I want a lighter level of brown, and maybe some caramel highlights thrown in.

I love Leighton Meester, she is gorgeous. And I love her on GG :) But anywho.. I want this color! And I want the style too! I am thinking about getting extensions just so I can pull off this big messy hair one day :) Engagements maybe?? Haha


I bet the ladies at work are so sick of me changing my hair.. But I can't help it! I am addicted!